I never want to stop learning.  The world is an exciting sometimes mysterious place for me with many things to explore and discover. But sometimes I wonder if this streak in me is so very nice after all.  The shadow side of it is that I am never totally satisfied.  I get disappointed quickly.  I start to think maybe I can do ‘it’ (whatever ‘it’ is in the moment) better.

There’d be arrogance attached to this if it were not for the fact that I know so little about anything.  This means I become my own vessel of experimentation.  Which in turn means I have no choice but to take risks sometimes.

I began to research various possibilities for the chlorophyll angle of my ‘get to grips with the smell factor’.  I’m struck again by how much filler crap is sometimes added to the tablets we so often swallow. Stearic acid is but one of these .  On ’skin deep’ it has a low to moderate risk factor when topically applied, so what happens I wonder if day after day we consume it?  Does that higher the risk?  And precisely how much do we swallow per pill?  I don’t know…it might be midget amounts or it could be enough to cause longerterm probs.  On the other hand a working compound is often isolated meaning it is easier to take and possibly more effective.

But those fillers bug me.  So I turned to a jar of the natural green stuff.  Various spirulina, barleygrass and Alfalfa powder blended.  It arrived this morning and now I am having my doubts.  Oh my lawdy.  This is GREEN. It is grass for heavens sakes. It is a big punnet - overwhelming.  What am I doing?!!!!  I am not a cow. Usually. ;-)

The are not kidding when they call it ‘Supreme Greens’ :

http://mammaearth.com/green-superfood/cat_4.html

I am trying to drum up courage to sample it.  I will need around double the dose (I quite often double my dose to compensate for DS effects) to see if it does anything at all. So thats 4 teaspoons of the stuff. A veritable bowl of soup - ugh!   I am thinking maybe I can rather make a face mask out of it so it does not go to waste!  Such is my sudden reluctance to be the experimental vessel today.

I’m starting to live in wretched fear of my own endless creating. This green stuff and clay  :roll: I cannot think of anything less appealling but if I don’t do it I won’t know whether it works, nor if it is worth it.  When I swallowed clay for the first time I felt the excellent effect was worth the horror of slugging back liquid earth.  If I can reduce the clay amount it would probably be better…hence the green stuff addition. Plus as the clay might absorb my precious nutrients there is the possibility the green stuff might balance that a little .  The green stuff also has lots of natural copper & I can do with that as I continue to take high dose zinc. There may be unproven, speculative advantages in the combo. I frikkin hope so!

I’m thinking on how I took a similar partly -proven, speculative gamble on a very large scale with my DS. I checked out every facet of the bodies biology and the exact way surgery would impact that,  in as much as I could beforehand.  I am still today amazed that so few WLS candidates don’t bother to do this. The surgeon says it works and away they go into what can be no mans land sometimes.  :-?     I dunno - it strikes the fear of the gods into me, but we all understand desperation, so I am not judging. Just observing.   I’m glad to this day that I did not opt for so called ’safer’ surgeries. So far my DS has appeared both safer and more effective generally speaking than what is on mainstream offer in WLS world. I understand exactly why it is not offered as mainstream - and I don’t buy the ‘ DS is riskier thing’  but I won’t go into that here because I might get started in a way that is even too big for me to handle. 8-O

Of course I might just be biding my time & one day it comes back to bite me on the bottom.  But so far - I’d say the riskiest weight loss surgery has come out tops. In my life anyway. Maybe in the abstracts written about it too.

But back to other matters.

I have been painting my kitchen.  It’s a good thing as my energy is way high. I think I get used to a high activity level when I travel with all the walking I do (sometimes I walk all day nearly!).  It’s looking crisp & clean & I feel happy I am doing something constructive about my delapidated half cooked house.

The weekend is here & I need to crack on with things.  I am making several ‘custom’ facial serums for people I know with allergies to mainstream cosmetics.  I started this cosmetic malarky not long ago & made a few gifts and now I have friends calling me to say ‘I’ve run out of my cream!!!’   I don’t mind supplying them as I love to be challenged and I believe that a product tailored to the user also has a certain happiness factor that money can’t buy.  I like being part of that vibration.  :-)

To these ends, a bag of Babassu oil arrived this morning and I am in deep love with it. It is so so beautiful and I am so inspired and just itching to work with it.  It is a semi solid oil but the magic is it sinks into my skin leaving not a trace of grease, just a gentle softness. This is a rare quality as most oils either take a lot of time to sink into the skin or leave a sweaty shine. Not this baby!  It has a cooling effect as it is applied but not in the harsh way a menthol or mint would have. There is no sudden rush attached to it, it soothes.  How I wish I had known about it when I was a pre-op and had a dried out skin for several months. It would have been perfect and itis really that good that it could be used alone as a moisturiser. So if you are a new dry skinned post-op, throw out all those rubbish artificial creams. Order a bag of this - you are highly unlikely to regret it. When I have the time I will post up a special easy recipe for Babassu Post op butter/cream…and I shall tentatively reveal my source for obtaining it too. 8-)

It will be the base in my serums.  I also got some Monoi ‘d Tahiti oil which is made by distilling Gardenia flowers into virgin coconut oil.  The soft floral scent of it is absolutely gorgeous. In South Africa I had Gardenia’s in my garden and as evening fell the air would fill with this fragrance direct from heaven.  This oil retains the exact notes of a live blooming moonlit gardenia bush.  I’m not against carefully chosen synthetics in perfumes, but today I wonder why even bother with bought perfumes?  They all smell the same to me in many ways within their ‘types’.  Again - I want more.

And my friends there is more to be had.  This oil is a good start to that ‘moreness factor.’ It is probably ‘beginners bliss’ on my part but suddenly I am feeling like there is another amazing world of scents and fragrances to explore.

What is wonderful is how the fragrance has lasted on my skin. Natural fragrance oils often have a short skin life. I applied some several hours ago and it is still holding firm. It has dried down a little but has a kind of aura as if it floats in the air around me when I move.   I think it is gentle enough for some of my allergen endowed friends to have a little of diluted into the serum but we’ll patch test first to be sure.

Enough now - my but I have rambled on today. Let me get on with all things pending!

Hope you enjoy your weekend - have a good one! :-D